19.12.2013

again we fought today
if i know things gonna be in this way
i wouldn't wanna fight with him
i won't voice out any of my thoughts

i admit i got a little sad when he said he not gonna eat today
so i just voice out my thought
then we fight again
why am i so stupid
i should have know things gonna end up this way
why am i against him again?

I am happy to cook
cooking for him is happiest and fun moment
and to know that he like to eat is even more happier i get
but he now don't want anymore
just because i did some stupid things again

i actually plan to cook something nice tomorrow for him
is an apologize for not being by his side on Christmas
along with the present i pick for him
but everything is no use anymore
he not going to eat anymore
as i did something to make him angry again
How stupid am I to did that..

Hope for a better conversation~

Sometimes what I talk doesn't mean what I think

I talk just because I wanted to speak more with you

I can't meet you every time everyday

so I hope I could speak to you more every time you phone me

it doesn't matter what am I going to say

sometimes I don't really know what I said as well

I just hope I could find more things to talk to you

but you seems so serious to me

every single word is meant to you

it makes me afraid to talk to you sometimes

as I will scare what I talk to you will make you get angry again

sometimes I just hope you can don't get angry easily~

I am not perfect

I do stupid things sometimes

You can tell me what I have did wrong

I just hope you don't get angry

sometimes you said you din angry

but your voice doesn't sound so to me

you talk without any tone

is creepy and scary

just like I talk with you with a low voice

and you will know I am upset

Good Morning and Good Night is important to me actually

I like you to say morning and night to me

I din't wanted to force you

I always remind you cause you forget many times

Actually I get a little disappointed when I saw you woke up

but din actually greet me

It makes me feel that I am not important to you

although I know you are not

I don't want much from you

and I don't request much from you

I just hope you could actually greet me with sincere

right after you wake and before you sleep

this make me feel warmth and love

I know you are busy always

and I know you are tired

So I don't dare to request much from you

I just hope I could hear something warm from you

A little greeting might be nothing to you

but it mean a lot to

to know you are fine today

so I could sleep well without worries

I hope my conversation with you every night is sweet

I hope I could talk to you with smile and sincere

we rarely meet each other

so I really hope we could use that little and limited time we have 

to know more of each other

but it seems so hard to us

we fought every day and night

really hope some day

we could really talk to each other without any quarrel

peacefully and sweetly~

~REALLY HOPE THIS WILL COME TRUE ONE DAY~

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